CUPHAZ

I never realized how many people actually care about me.

I can’t believe how easily I give up, I try so fucking hard. I have bottled up all of these emotions for too long. I don’t think I have ever cried this much. I don’t know what to do with myself anymore. I am such a burden. Why does an internet couple splitting up upset me so much? I thought it was possible for two people love each other unconditionally, but apparently not. I wish that diseases didn’t exist and I wish it didn’t take away the people that we love. I wish life didn’t hurt so much.

I am a broken soul.

There is literally an argument going on in my head right now. One side of me is saying, “do it you fucking coward, if you don’t, you’ll deeply regret it.” But another side of me is so fucking scared and anxious. I am always so fucking scared.